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42 days to go: I am a loathsome individual
I’m going through a terrific phase the last few days* where I want to do everything differently. The Beast’s train is too long. The veil I tried on and liked and can actually buy from this site for less than $100 (thanks, BMD!) is no longer likeable to me. I wish I’d chosen different shoes but now that I’ve been clomping around the apartment in these blue soles a couple times, it’s too late to return them. Yesterday's hair appointment made me feel poofy. The makeup artist was an utterly wretched individual who I would never allow to step foot in my mother’s house, leaving me with a pile of new MAC makeup I’ll never be able to get right. My grandmother’s gorgeous beaded purse from the thirties that I was so happy to retrieve doesn’t actually match my dress. I’m fairly certain that two of the three bridesmaids hate their dresses, leaving all the hair-pulling-out and stomach-knotting worrying I did to get a dress everyone liked an utter waste of my time. I can’t think of a single wedding-like color for my pedicure that I like, being more the fire-engine-red type myself.
In fact, about the only wedding-related decision I’ve made that I don’t secretly wish to call “do over!” on at this point is this one.
And also, the invitations. I mean, if the wedding were comprised of nothing but printed materials and groom, I'd be all up in it's grill right now. Really!
* I think in some circles, this is known as PMS, but since I don’t acknowledge such aspects of my personality, clearly it is everything else that is the problem.
comments (20)
Breathe in....breathe out....
It's going to be ok. Lots of wine might also help.
1 | Wicked H | July 17, 2005 10:28 AM
For your pedicure, go with whatever makes you happy! I bet nobody but you notices the color, anyway.
2 | Jeanne | July 17, 2005 11:33 AM
go for the fire-engine red.
i love those shoes. i'm getting similar ones, as i can't wear 2" heels, not with my future husband.
www.dyeables.com, style: magic
don't worry abou the bridesmaid dresses. or non-matching purse. you'll be lovely!
can't wait to see the beast!
3 | pam | July 17, 2005 12:28 PM
you don't have to be the perfect 'bride', just be yourself. when the day comes, you won't have one second to worry about all of this.
4 | nicole | July 17, 2005 01:28 PM
Have you ever had a french pedicure? It's super cute, very classy, and goes with anything...Including The Beast, I'm sure. Also, if it's done well, it lasts forever, which is just a bonus.
5 | Alana | July 17, 2005 04:42 PM
Another vote for fire engine red here - that's what I had! And markedly similar shoes.
6 | birdy | July 17, 2005 06:14 PM
go with red nails! check out opi's edin-burgundy (it's my current favorite red). the important part is the soulmate; everything else is the frosting on the cake. and frosting is good no matter what it looks like...
7 | Joanna | July 18, 2005 09:22 AM
Ooohhhh. I went through that. I hated almost all my decisions and broke down in tears multiple times. I wasn't so certain I chose the right dress, the silk flowers looked too fake, I AGONIZED over the shoes choice for weeks (no, months). But you know what? On the wedding day, it all looked perfect. The fact that the bridesmaids' dresses weren't the same length (a cause of panic and stress for me), didn't matter. The dress felt perfect. Hell we nearly forgot the music, the whole processional was an ad-lib, I freaked out the entire day before. But it all worked out, and I will always remember how wonderful my hubby looked, how beautiful I felt, and how much fun the guests appeared to have.
I'd tell you to relax, but I know you won't. It's the curse of the bride. I will tell you that it'll be fine, and afterwards none of this will matter (much). it gets so much better - I promise.
8 | Natalie | July 18, 2005 09:47 AM
LOL
that last part is too funny
take a deep breathe and everything will be A-OK
9 | Master Foley | July 18, 2005 12:40 PM
I've got tons of pictures of my June 4 wedding on flickr (find via my email). It wasn't the perfect wedding, but I was perfectly happy.
I wore a tiny tiara, but no veil even though I bought one from David's bridal - one tier in ivory. Quite gorgeous with some pearls here & there that I got for $65 - I can give you the style number and take some pictures of it for you. If you liked it you could have it for $20 plus shipping. I decided at the last minute I didn't even want it on my head - too much frills for my style - tags are still on.
As far as shoes go, against just about everyone's wishes I wore some really cute light gold (almost nude) colored Kenneth Cole flip flops that were $39. I got a pair in black too and both pairs have been my favorite summer shoes. So comfortable that it's almost ridiculous!
My toes were a red that matched my bridesmaides dresses - think "Red Wine"...my finger nailes were a light nude. But honestly, people were looking at my hair and dress and how happy me and my hub were - my nails could have been turquoise to match the crystals in the tiara.
It's all about you.
10 | Sunshine(KVB-E) | July 18, 2005 12:51 PM
red!! fabulous cherry red--I did it too! why be one of those brides that doesnt look/act like herself on her wedding day??
11 | Cristina | July 18, 2005 02:07 PM
If you have close-toed shoes, what does your toe color matter to anyone but you? And if the shoes come flying off later in the night, all the better to have that fire-engine red poking out! My wedding is about a month after yours, so it's been fun to have corresponding anxiety with you while knowing what to look forward to. Can't wait to see pics of the beast in action.
12 | Liz | July 18, 2005 05:14 PM
Ha! I was so waiting for someone to point that out. You won't be able to see my toes, but I'm neurotic and need my fingers and toes to match. At least for this. Even though it doesn't matter.
But, while none of these things are really what matter, a wedding is no time to focus on priorities! Not when I have pedicure hues to consider! :)
13 | deb | July 18, 2005 05:34 PM
ok, as for the bridesmaid dresses, don't sweat it -- the wedding day will make them rue the moment they made you think they hated the dress. I had to wear a dress in a style i *explicitly* told my best friend I *could not* wear (strapless -- I have boobs -- it's too hard with boobs!) and not only did I realize that a) she chose a style that magically worked on my bustiness but also b) who, really, is looking at the bridesmaids? No one! Everyone's looking at the bride! (and, not your toes! Go with the red! It goes very nicely with white/ivory!)
14 | superspecialk | July 19, 2005 03:38 AM
red nails! i'm wearing a fairly traditional wedding gown, but damn if i'm not going for my favorite red on the nails and a hot-ass pair of Marc Jacobs fall shoes...
15 | stacey | July 19, 2005 03:18 PM
Stumbled on your site via NML.. have to say I was giggling at my desk reading over some of your posts! You are hillarious! My sister just went through the whole big wedding, and you sound just like her! :-P Take a deep breath.. everything will be just fine.
16 | Audrey | July 20, 2005 11:19 AM
I haven't had the anxiety yet, but trying to register last night was a disaster. Got any stories about that process?
17 | Lisa | July 20, 2005 12:11 PM
It all depends on where you register! .. seriously though, the closer you get to your wedding, the more crazy you are gonna feel. In the end though, things usually work out just fine. I promise
18 | Audrey | July 20, 2005 12:37 PM
I really wanted a cute little beaded purse to carry on my wedding day, but then I realized that is one accessory brides do not need. How are you going to carry a purse? It will just get in the way, or you will put it down and not remember where. Get your best guy friend or your dad to keep kleenexes in his pocket for you and either have him carry your lipstick as well or hide it in the bathroom closest to the dance floor. You may think you'll need other stuff, but you really don't.
19 | Craige | July 22, 2005 01:03 PM
Large...deep...breaths.
Large, deep, glasses of your favorite fragrant intoxicant.
Large, deep gazes into your favorite man's eyes.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
There are very few requirements for a wedding: a bride, a groom, an officiant, and your state's requisite number of witnesses. EVERYthing else is gravy, and any other requirements that you or your family put on are CHOICES. Paint every toe a different color if you want. Carry the bag, if it makes you happy. The larger your ceremony & reception, the less likely you are to remember more than snippets of it. And that's with a photographer. Please do whatever it is to make yourself happy and worry about NO ONE else. Then take another look into your lover's eyes, and remember that the hair goes but the brain stays. Best wishes! rgb
20 | robyn | August 10, 2005 09:19 PM